How to Feel Fully Alive | Letter to a Friend #10

Hola friend,
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I have been thinking about fear (again) lately. Mainly because I have realized I am afraid to make another Youtube video for fear of more hate after the last fiasco. I am also re-reading a book called The Way of the Superior Man, which has a lot to do with love and relationships but also mission/purpose as someone with predominantly masculine energy.
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In a chapter titled, "Know Your Real Edge and Don't Fake It", author David Deida asks the reader, "Where do your fears stop you from making a larger contribution to humankind, from earning a higher income, or from earning money in a more creative and enjoyable way? If you were absolutely fearless, would you be earning a living in exactly the same way as you are now? Your edge is where you stop short, or where you compromise your fullest gift and, instead, cater to your fears."
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If we are honest with ourselves, it is likely none of us are living at our edge, me included. I feel that there have been times, however, where I have, and they were ecstatic. It is a feeling of lying down to sleep at night and knowing that you won, not your fears. You were afraid/reluctant to do something, but you did it anyways. I cherish that feeling, and I know that I am not living with that kind of courage right now.
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I'm not beating myself up about it - simply realizing that I need to step up my game again. So here is my commitment: Two Youtube videos published this week (after two months of none).
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What's your commitment? What are you afraid of doing, and how can you make a commitment to someone (could even be replying to this email) that you will do that thing? It's likely you will immediately know the answer - you will just be reluctant to choose it. Your mind will go, "Nahhh, not that one, pick something else."
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I encourage you to pick that one. 🙂 
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Happy conquering, and please let me know how it goes if you so desire!
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Much love.
Ryan