I Want to Be a Warrior

Howzit friend!

When I was a kid, I played more than my fair share of video games. I particularly loved games like Skyrim, RuneScape, and this one sick ninja game on MiniClip that I forget the name of. ​

This makes me realize: I want to be a warrior. ​That might sound intense, like I want to go join the army and mess people up, but I don't think it is. I think, instead, that there is a need deep in my masculine core to be strong, capable, and anchored. ​

That might mean to be able to survive in the woods for days at a time, to be trained in combat sports to be able to defend myself and others if the time comes, or to simply know who I am and what I am capable of at a deep level. ​And I don't think the path determined for me by society is conducive to these values.

Outside of the gym, there is hardly anything about my life that addresses these needs. ​Which means I need to address them myself.

Step one: Spend a night in the woods by myself! ​

This is the journey I'm on, but I'm curious if any of you share a similar desire to connect more with your masculine energy (even if you're a girl!)? I can't imagine I'm the only one that feels disconnected from this part of myself.

Also, if you haven't noticed, I've been bombarding my Youtube, Instagram and (new!) TikTok with short videos on things ranging from how to run more, why I meditate, and my insight into fear's role in my own self-improvement.

Check 'em out if any of those catch your eye! Until next week. ​

Much love, Ryan

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